Sunday, January 24, 2010
i need time
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12:02 AM
think i will blog again in march. bahhhh....
baby, i wana be a tai tai so i can blog all day long. ;)
Labels: rants
Saturday, June 20, 2009
hello world!
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8:32 PM
yes, i know i just need to step it up on my updates in this cyberworld. gosh, i've never been away this long.
i thought i would have all the time in the world during the so-called June holiday.
just like i used to back then. but the reality always sucks, you know.
i have yet to meet my besties, AG babes, Slackerz' Inc, Kucing Parsiku and Lil' Kuzin.
that's really sad lah.
worst, we have yet to spend good ol' quality times together, honey. soon alright? =)
thankfully, we're set for a kecohrable plan in Jul with the MUA babes. =)
the two weeks of hols just went by a tad too fast aye.
i did not even touch anything related to work, trust me. =)
hell ya, im left with one more day to rest for the next day will be back to the routines.
how boring.
will update again later! but it will just be a brief one.
told ya i THOUGHT i will have time for this love of mine.Labels: rants
Monday, May 04, 2009
how many sheeps did i count already?
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5:58 PM
bored, aching heart and VERY busy.
how?Labels: rants
Sunday, May 03, 2009
bad days ahead.
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10:23 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
his hard-earned money
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11:53 PM
my first kayakking trip to pasir ris. to pulau ubin. to a kelong.
all with a loud and great company. i went with a light heart, hoping to destress.
yes, it was a success. a serence place.
at least i get to step to pulau ubin for the very first time. i've been meaning to go there anyway.
that the colleagues teased me about it. -_-
thanks to the men of my life - dad and the love.
protected child they call me now. great.
however, i went home with a heartache lah.
my guess watch given by the love had dropped into the sea through the hole in the kayak.
=(
no, that's not my crocs lah. i wore my bright sunny red adidas shoe that they find it too sayang
to be used for kayakking. so they lent me their huge croc instead. haha.
i am very sad. really really sad....im sorry baby...
you're too sweet with that sms, you know that?
now, i feel guilty. im so careless, right?Labels: colleagues, rants
Saturday, March 07, 2009
time out please
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1:41 AM
Saturday, February 14, 2009
mulut ku masin bangat
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11:15 PM
i kinda miss the camp.
any-hoo...today, the moment that i've always fear everday without fail had just happened right
before my eyes. our eyes.
hopefully everything will turn out just fine.Labels: rants
Friday, February 06, 2009
f.a.t.i.g.u.e
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10:21 PM
felt better and fresh after a bath but the body ache was still as bad.
today alone was in school till nine at night. more than freaking twelve hours.
teachings, netball and international student welcome party. nonstop. whoa, this week was madness.
i really do not feel good. im giddy and dizzy. my bones are gonna break soon.
but ironically, i feel good today. =)
i did something which i never could have imagine i would. even though it was jittery at first.
they gave a pat on my back for a job well done. im so proud of myself. LOL.
ok im REALLY so exhausted.Labels: random, rants
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
post-CNY mood
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11:23 PM
hey! hey! it's back to work, people!
it's back to school, fellow teachers!
*_*
oh how i hate tuesday, wednesday and thursday. especially wednesday. aargh!
that i even have the thoughts of feigning sick or even let myself fell down the stairs just so the
doctor could give me a longer period of MC. heh. silly silly me.
but seriously no way aidah! not a single MC, insyallah, in a year at least.
half a year more, aidah and you will be reaching your goal! haha.
nvm, at least work beats having holiday at home all day long.
people holiday hurray hurray but me holiday cranky cranky.
holiday means he is needed at work. how boring! can die lah seh.
what more having the hyperactive little one keeping everyone at home occupied, yelling here
and there. for a moment i thought he is a ADHD child. but nah, he's just being a normal little boy.
headache! makan hati, can?
aiya, migrane when at work. headache and makan hati at home. doink!
so, Baby E, make my day tomorrow! ;)Labels: rants
Saturday, January 24, 2009
repeated
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10:16 PM
damn those unreasonable morons.
now my quality time with you today isn't happening.
as much as i tried to be very understanding, i cannot help it but to feel so sick.
tell me how can i not be angry?
even seconds is so precious to me now.
oh please dear Allah, grant me all the strength and faith that i truly need now.
i should have just gone to the chalet with my family and relatives.
or i should have just gone to meet idayu for some girly moments that we initially planned.
aargh.Labels: rants, you
Saturday, January 17, 2009
alive but literally dead
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11:04 PM
i do not know where to start actually.
the new year hasn't been good for a start.
workload has been increasing drastically of late and im not liking it.
totally not fun i tell you. just teaching alone has already drained me out despite loving it.
but the paper works and events are the ones which pull me down.
it's getting more hectic. im super duper worn out, getting all shagged whenever i got home
every single day. i can even count the number of days (2 days) i ever clock out before 3pm (3PM
and not 1 or 2PM wokay) ever since i started teaching. the rest of the days till now, i've been
going home at 5-ish or 6pm since the school closes at 6pm everyday. if not, i might have been
camping there wokay.
i used to have difficulties sleeping. but now, after a good bath once im home, i just do not want
to do any paperwork or markings. i put myself to bed and to find myself awaken by the little
niece the next morning to get ready for school. getting to my dreamland has been easy since then.
and all of these have made me a lazy aunty, daughter, girlfriend and friend. sometimes, i do feel
like drowning myself in ice cold bath to wake myself up and get out of the house to have fun.
but exhaustion is my daily word now, stopping me from everything nice.
my room is in a mess every single day. i don't bother about cleaning up.
i ignore the little ones whenever they want to play with me.
even though i did not sleep on our late night calls, i still find myself too tired to prolong the usual talks.
i just wana sleep. i postponed meetups with the friends. one of which was my kanchiong spider
practicum girlfriend. aargh, i felt so guilty not abling to celebrate her burpday. thankfully i made
it in meeting dearest ms idayu. vomit all out.
poor babyku, he's anticipating his twentythree so much despite denying it. he claimed that it's
like celebrating another year towards his death. funnily, he even tried to call up his two brothers
if i did conspire with them to surprise him. even my eldest sister was not spared from him
wokay. he and his kiddy silly thoughts. his excuse was not wanting to be caught off guard again
like the previous years. no more surprises honey. that i truly apologise. you and your pathetic
schedules. how am i supposed to plan yet another burpday surprise, right? -_-
as guilty as i was, a simple dinner and burpday shopping after a tiring day will do for now.
this year, your burpday falls on a tuesday. gladly, your off day. but sadly, my mad rush day.
i ended at 6pm due to meeting and CCA. aargh. how wonderful, kan? only get to meet at 7pm.
i know you care how tired i was that you wanted to just celebrate on another day but you know i
care for you too and how sad you will be if im not there by your side on your bday.
i love you baby. you know i really do.
aargh. im so emo recently i just wana cry. strength. i really need that.
sigh. situations like this made me want to have the urge to just get married at once.
anyway........
and it's never complete without the picture of us no matter how ugly it will turn out. the wind!
i've been procrastinating in updating this dead blog of mine. actually i wanted to just write a one
liner but heck, me and my thoughts.
this has got to stop. this is so unhealthy, you know. for me at least.
i really need to learn how to manage my time well. like seriously.
in future, when i decided to have a family of my own, this kind of life is a no no NO.
let's start with next week.
aidah to go off and finish every single work in school by 4pm. so let's start with that first, shall we?
okok goodnyte everyone! till then. =)
im so sorry for replying your tags late, dear lovelies!
to beauillusion:
thank you very much love! =) the tip must be...join teaching! ;)
to fadedbabyjeans:
likewise, im counting the days to thursday every week for it's gonna be TGIF the following day which made me high. of course, the CNY! yeah ness! but it's gonna be a short yeah ness due to CAs. aargh. a tad too late perhaps but still, i wish you a happy and wonderful 2009 love! let's gambate to one another and strive through this journey together! =)
to filzah:
hello ffiiillllzzahh! hee. you pun da jarang update eh. the teachers over there bombard you with technical problems aye? lol! i so understand this. ahha. i didn't even know if you're the first tagger in my blog for 2009. even i myself seldom visit my own blog. pls tell me this isn't healthy.
to sue:
haha, not sure. not as if i love sushi lah. but once a while have that craving to munch. heh. being a carnivore myself, of course its a waste for me lah since there's limited choices of sushi that's 'ideal' for me. lol! so, you're not kental dear. im the kental-est of all. ;)
to ms idayu:
ahha, everything has been said the other night. =)
so let's excel those little babies of ours aye!
Labels: rants
Thursday, January 01, 2009
welcome 2009
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11:56 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
let's all embrace this new year with open hearts and positive mind.
throw whatever nonsense and cherish our treasured moments of 2008 and look forward to the
wonderful memories to treasure yet again!
may 2009 be filled with lots of love, everlasting happiness, good health and a whole lot of new experiences!
i just wanna be a better person for my loved ones! heh.
and come tomorrow, im going to embrace with a grand welcome....my new crybabies!
just because he wanted this song to be playing on my blog
just because he loves to irritate me with the songs that i dislike
asal?! you dah rimas dengan me pe??! yakdish! you mcm lohan ah!
Labels: rants
Monday, December 29, 2008
7.a.m in the morning
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7:34 AM
rise and shine!
im awake. yes! =)
never felt so fresh before after a good early morning bath. what an early riser i am!
my body clock needs some readjustment again as of now. back to school. back to work. back to migranes!
eyes seem to be extra small today. used to waking up in the noon i guess.
no more of that till the mid-year. bet it's going to be a long day later.
hmm, the last time i visited and did a spring-cleaning on my workstation was the week after the
end of school year. and today, dust must be living comfortably there now. so, spring-cleaning
again! oh not forgeting my new classroom. now, that's another headache!
alright, before i get myself to be late for work once by ranting even more, i better get ready aye!
im hungry!
isn't it great to snuggle up in bed in this kind of weather? =(Labels: rants, school
Monday, December 22, 2008
tick tock tick tock
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10:14 PM
in just a few days time, santa claus will be coming to town or so the kids believe.
in just less than a week, school reopens for yet another new academic year and that kinda make
my heart sink, counting the last bits of Dec left even if i miss my kids oh so much.
and of course, that means we will be embracing the new year.
most importantly, that means im getting a year older. bleargh.
ok, i think i better start thinking on some new resolutions for 2009. hmm....
oh whhhyyyyyy time always pass by oh so quickly when we're having fun?
Labels: rants
Saturday, November 29, 2008
like a stranger
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11:35 PM
i always have the tendency to forget what i wanna blog everytime i face the desktop screen.
but tonight, after a fresh soothing bath, what had happened just few hours ago was still fresh and
will forever be etched in my memory.
never in my entire life ever have i felt worst than a piece of trash.
we were totally like fools. are we that invisible?
to think that someone whom we just know and met last month had the urge and courtesy to
check on us time to time if we were doing fine.
we couldnt thank him enough for that and we truly appreciate that nice gesture.
yes, your newly found love.
to think that i actually wanted to come for i still hold on strong to our eons of friendship, despite
half of me was contemplating to go for i know somehow my presence was of no importance or
rather not appreciated.
and true enough. and i'd seen enough. and felt truly hurt enough.
oh! what a great excuse. for that.
for no matter what happens, you know that we'll always be there. you know i will.
so try harder for a wonderful excuse next time. hmm, bet there won't be any next time.
it's true what kinky said. the number now left with two. great number two.
weird number as we've always been one for all and all for one. but that's the reality now.
this may be a harsh one but im just too tired of being nice all the time, giving in for as long as i could afford to.
too tired of bottling all up ever since the other who is like a dear sister and another who is like
a bud and baby of the group kind of drift close apart.
but the outcome is a bull.
i know kinky was totally heartbroken upon seeing what we're supposed not to see or supposed to
be there come what may, despite hearing another great excuse.
me? of course, i was good at being ignorant and clueless all the time, trying to figure out what's
the meaning of all this with the annoying help of my little talks in my head.
from there i know, that's it. that's how we truly matter to you now.
so much for wanting and trying to salvage this unimportant friendship of ours.
this is such a rare entry for us. in this way. no wait, the first ever harsh entry.
i guess the emotion in me is taking control already.
sigh!
never mind, let's look on the bright side.
a rainbow will definitely appear after a hot sunny rainy day. =)
just because.Labels: bestfriends, rants
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
butterflies in my stomach
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12:13 AM
oh how exciting! just like our very first date.
i IS so excited. another one in a million dates tomorrow.
so excited and nervous that it took me quite awhile deciding on what to wear tomorrow.
call me nuts but that's what im feeling right now.
it may just be another normal date but hey, it's going to be a WHOLE DAY kinda date hokay.
that's why! days like this hard to come by now. *smirks at him*
never mind that we have yet to plan the destination for tomorrow.
as long as we get to be together. eew, so cliche! but i don't care!
hmm, lemme see the last time we met was....ah! the day before the last day of school (14th Nov).
and another was kinky's 22nd which was 22nd Nov and that was it!
i remembered as that was the day i dragged him to ShengSiong to shop for last minute groceries
for my class party! the day which made me a few hundred poorer. aiseh!
i think i got to stop spending my hard-earned money on the kids like water.
this has got to stop lah dey! if not, my dream of getting married will soon diminish into thin air.
but then again (my life revolves so much with "but"), they truly deserved those treatments.
their hard work and lack of tender loving care at home. you'll cry to hear their true stories.
their life story. tears welled in my eyes upon hearing the truth that i swear i should stop
whining about the little things in life.
*shoots myself down*
alright, stop wailing! im supposed to be on a happy mode right now.
gawd, how i miss him so. ok, let's leave all the mushy stuff till tomorrow.
so yesterday was my first to attend a chinese wedding at Traders Hotel.
it was just like any other chinese weddings that i would watch on chinese dramas,
what with the cocktail in round tables, friends and relatives showering the bride and groom with
petals upon their arrival, the toast with that long ya...mmm...seennggg, speech, videoclips of
their journey and to end it all with the couple going to each and every table to say their
appreciation and group photo.
only one thing that i was ignorant about. the red packet.
thank gawd for Emmeline who suddenly remembered about my first to a chinese wedding that
she had the sudden urge to ask about the amount i gave.
i was taken aback though with the awkward question since i thought the amount would be out of sincerity what!
i only know the difference between our Malay and their wedding was the vast difference in the amount we gave to the newly weds.
but never did i know that the vast difference was reaaaalllly HUGE.
i was laughing at myself in the car for being so selenge....and they laughed too. how nice!
never mind! something new that i had learnt. lol!
anyway, it was Lay Hwa's wedding but we were having a hell of fun taking pictures of ourselves happily.
we were madly happy. i was indeed truly happy. that i smile oh so wide in every picture. -_-
you see, the time stated in the invitation card was 7.00pm - Cocktail and 7.30pm - Dinner.
we reached at 7 exactly. but heck, not many were present at that time.
and guess what, the dinner started at 8.30pm. -_-
you never knew how freaking famished i was!
i guess this was one of the many occasions that we were able to dress up and captured those happy moments together.
just being away from the usual school day which was a total dread for us.
but with crazy colleagues like them, school is always fun! =)
1. my heart-warming and motherly mentor!
2. my ex-teacher and my lil bro's ex-teacher too! how weird! hee.
1. the young ones in school.
2. mrs adnan, my ex-teacher literally forced them to take picture together. lol!
that one lil' kid at the back not included in the frame lah!
hafiza and yourstruly left just minutes before the dinner ended at 1030pm.
we had our curfews. her fiance fetched her but where did i go?
i hailed a cab and made my way down to baby's workplace. haha.
just so we could go home together. =)
so are you happy that im finally dropping by your workplace, hunny bunny?
-_-
and i know words of praise don't come by easily from me but i must say this and i know you
are truly kembang when i say this..
you looked suave and awesomely hot, baby! =)
ok, im having goosebumps right now.
off to bed. toodles!Labels: love, occasions/celebrations, rants
