Saturday, January 17, 2009
alive but literally dead
updated @
11:04 PM
i do not know where to start actually.
the new year hasn't been good for a start.
workload has been increasing drastically of late and im not liking it.
totally not fun i tell you. just teaching alone has already drained me out despite loving it.
but the paper works and events are the ones which pull me down.
it's getting more hectic. im super duper worn out, getting all shagged whenever i got home
every single day. i can even count the number of days (2 days) i ever clock out before 3pm (3PM
and not 1 or 2PM wokay) ever since i started teaching. the rest of the days till now, i've been
going home at 5-ish or 6pm since the school closes at 6pm everyday. if not, i might have been
camping there wokay.
i used to have difficulties sleeping. but now, after a good bath once im home, i just do not want
to do any paperwork or markings. i put myself to bed and to find myself awaken by the little
niece the next morning to get ready for school. getting to my dreamland has been easy since then.
and all of these have made me a lazy aunty, daughter, girlfriend and friend. sometimes, i do feel
like drowning myself in ice cold bath to wake myself up and get out of the house to have fun.
but exhaustion is my daily word now, stopping me from everything nice.
my room is in a mess every single day. i don't bother about cleaning up.
i ignore the little ones whenever they want to play with me.
even though i did not sleep on our late night calls, i still find myself too tired to prolong the usual talks.
i just wana sleep. i postponed meetups with the friends. one of which was my kanchiong spider
practicum girlfriend. aargh, i felt so guilty not abling to celebrate her burpday. thankfully i made
it in meeting dearest ms idayu. vomit all out.
poor babyku, he's anticipating his twentythree so much despite denying it. he claimed that it's
like celebrating another year towards his death. funnily, he even tried to call up his two brothers
if i did conspire with them to surprise him. even my eldest sister was not spared from him
wokay. he and his kiddy silly thoughts. his excuse was not wanting to be caught off guard again
like the previous years. no more surprises honey. that i truly apologise. you and your pathetic
schedules. how am i supposed to plan yet another burpday surprise, right? -_-
as guilty as i was, a simple dinner and burpday shopping after a tiring day will do for now.
this year, your burpday falls on a tuesday. gladly, your off day. but sadly, my mad rush day.
i ended at 6pm due to meeting and CCA. aargh. how wonderful, kan? only get to meet at 7pm.
i know you care how tired i was that you wanted to just celebrate on another day but you know i
care for you too and how sad you will be if im not there by your side on your bday.
i love you baby. you know i really do.
aargh. im so emo recently i just wana cry. strength. i really need that.
sigh. situations like this made me want to have the urge to just get married at once.
anyway........
and it's never complete without the picture of us no matter how ugly it will turn out. the wind!
i've been procrastinating in updating this dead blog of mine. actually i wanted to just write a one
liner but heck, me and my thoughts.
this has got to stop. this is so unhealthy, you know. for me at least.
i really need to learn how to manage my time well. like seriously.
in future, when i decided to have a family of my own, this kind of life is a no no NO.
let's start with next week.
aidah to go off and finish every single work in school by 4pm. so let's start with that first, shall we?
okok goodnyte everyone! till then. =)
im so sorry for replying your tags late, dear lovelies!
to beauillusion:
thank you very much love! =) the tip must be...join teaching! ;)
to fadedbabyjeans:
likewise, im counting the days to thursday every week for it's gonna be TGIF the following day which made me high. of course, the CNY! yeah ness! but it's gonna be a short yeah ness due to CAs. aargh. a tad too late perhaps but still, i wish you a happy and wonderful 2009 love! let's gambate to one another and strive through this journey together! =)
to filzah:
hello ffiiillllzzahh! hee. you pun da jarang update eh. the teachers over there bombard you with technical problems aye? lol! i so understand this. ahha. i didn't even know if you're the first tagger in my blog for 2009. even i myself seldom visit my own blog. pls tell me this isn't healthy.
to sue:
haha, not sure. not as if i love sushi lah. but once a while have that craving to munch. heh. being a carnivore myself, of course its a waste for me lah since there's limited choices of sushi that's 'ideal' for me. lol! so, you're not kental dear. im the kental-est of all. ;)
to ms idayu:
ahha, everything has been said the other night. =)
so let's excel those little babies of ours aye!
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