Monday, February 04, 2008
my little confession
updated @
12:32 AM
ok ok i confess!
instead of starting my script for readers' theatre, i did something else.
not that i did not want to but nothing seems to come out of this small brain of mine.
i just can't. i did force myself but i just can't eventually. =(
thank goodness for lecture on transforming nonfiction text into script later. phew!
but i really did something fruitful afterall. even if it's not the right time at the moment. lol!
browsing through wedding shots.
yes, yes! i did just that. isn't that consider fruitful enough?
it's for my future what! way, way advanced preparation! lol!
*slap me!*
aiyah, i really can't help it wokay. it's just in me.
it's been awhile since i did that. even babyku didn't even know about this!
*slap me again!*
but today, i just can't take it anymore. just can't keep it to myself anymore.
i just needed to let it out. to share it with babyku. not that we didn't have any talks about weddings together (at a young age of 14, mind you!)
but i never tell him about my own obsession in browsing through wedding shots. lol!
and apparently, i did share it with annu and yaya since we're stressed about our scripts just now. haha.
looking at those gorgeous, beautiful wedding photos just caught me in awe.
dreaming away....
that i just can't wait for my very own _____ wedding. sigh!
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me: baby, i just can't wait to get married looking at all those wedding shots...
him: setahu i u yg asyik nak delay je...btw, whose photos are u looking at?
me: of course lah, coz we're still not mentally, physically, financially prepared what! And of course, i look at people's photos lah. You duno all tis while
i discreetly look at ppl's weddin pix online, wedding gallery. I was in awe. =) i can't wait to have mine.
our beautiful ____ (colours)wedding.
him: _____ and _____ (colours)
me: your choice?
him: yeap, ______ is a muz...And ______ is a 2nd choice ah...
me: good choice baby. Me too! =) And im definitely wan soft ____ for akad nikah. swit!
him: can't wait baby! =)
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between us, im known to be the one who avoids the topic of marriage. yes i know, hard to believe!
simply because of 4 factors;
we're both still too young,
we have yet to give our parents a taste of our real hard-earned money (past temp jobs and tuitions not counted) and give them good life,
we're both still not mentally prepared for marriage life,
and we're both still not financially prepared, which is the most important thing.
and well, he's known to be so enthu about marriage. yes i know again, hard to believe too!
almost everyday without fail, he will ask me for a hand in marriage. irritating!
"bie, nak kahwin?"
he even talks to his mum like that about it.
i tell you, if one day he's ever gonna propose to me seriously, i will not believe him.
coz im not sure how to differentiate them! =/
but now, i really got to confess,
i can't wait to get married, bie! =)
ok ok enough already. snap out of it, ai*dah!
Labels: love, ourDream, random
