what it feels to be given another chance in life, and Allah's the greatest of all
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8:21 PM
guilty as charged. for procrastination. but i believe this is much more important for me. on life.
i was having a long chat over lunch and desserts with tutees' mums (my neighbour's sisters) just now. 3 long hours after tuition. over their child's current welfare and education, their worries over their child's time management and priority towards studies and so on. out of nowhere, the topic of mothers and birth became the highlight of the chat and a lesson learnt for me. an eye opener.
they shared their experiences at birth, insisting how painful the birth process was for them, resulting in the phobia of giving birth again. speaking of which, i wondered how my mum, my grandmothers and the old generations were able to give birth as many as they want albeit the sufferings that they had to go through over and over again. i've grown from an innocent little girl to a naive (as described by the love) young lady now. and sooner or later, i'll be going into the phase of marriage life where the role of a wife and a mother come to life. like any other woman in general, being a mother is my next goal after marriage. to experience all the sufferings that my mum did while giving birth to me and the rest of the siblings. and the bottomline is, to have a child of my very own. insyaallah... it will be incomplete for a woman's life to not able to conceive. and true enough, that will be my biggest fear in life.
coincidentally, i caught this particular episode of House over at AXN when boredom strikes the other day. it was truly a touching scene which obviously got me into tears real bad. this rock 'n' roll photographer who was five months pregnant suddenly collapsed whilst at work on the shoot for All American Rejects. a sudden stroke, which followed by a kidney failure, jaundice, liver failure. almost everything where both of their lives were threatened if the baby was not terminated.
well-known for being practical and cynical, Dr. House advised the mother to just save herself. with that, he tried to convince her to terminate her pregnancy but lo and behold, in the name of a mother's love to her child, she unwaveringly refused to do so and gave Dr. House two days to "fix it". and all along he referred to it as a foetus instead of a baby.
Photo credit : Michael Clancy 12/9/99
as the day came for him to perform a surgery on her unborn baby in utero, there's a moment when everything came to a sudden pause - the baby's tiny weeny hand reached out of the womb, gripped his finger and squeezed it. as if trying to thank him for saving his life. like the one in the picture above - based on a true case of the foetal surgery of a baby named Samuel Arma in returning him to his mother's womb on Dec 9, 1999. *tears*
so, is this still some kind of a foetus, huh?
it's a life, ok. the wonder life in a womb. so there you go - syurga terletak di bawah tapak kaki ibu i can't help it but to watch it over and over and over and over again. each time, tears start to trickle down the cheeks.
