Friday, November 30, 2007
i can never love anyone like the way i love you every now and then
updated @
11:33 PM
but of course, i love my family more than you lah!
muahahaha...
Zul Hilmi Bin Khalid,
what more can i say or even ask for?
for everything that you've done for me all this while,
for those little things that were so uncalled for,
for being my angel all the time (which you're unaware of),
for your greatest patience in coping with this stubborn, egoistic and naive girlfriend of yours,
for always making me your first priority in your list (you never knew how bad i feel) despite getting yourself into trouble,
for praising me all the time even though im not a perfect person after all,
for embracing me with your warmest hug knowing that i was feeling cold or even if im down (despite umpteen times of being pushed away),
for gazing at my eyes despite looking all weary (whatsnot with all those eyebags),
for holding my hands to give me the assurance that you'll always be walking with me hand in hand in this journey of ours together,
for getting along so well and treating my family and beloved friends like your very own,
for trying your very best to blend with them even if you felt small at times,
for trying all ways and means to get into the good books of mummy and elder sister (daddy's turn will come soon alright, insyaallah),
for assuring me that im going to do just fine like i always do,
for working so hard (despite your past injury) just for the sake of our future,
for sending and fetching me to and fro everywhere no matter how near or far,
for pampering me while you can (which i totally dislike for you didn't give me a chance to be independent),
for entertaining my nonsense and my-all-time-favourite-camwhoring,
for giving in to me all the time,
and the list goes on...
simply said, thank you for just being you.
for just loving me...
i know it's been hard in this long journey of ours.
tribulations do come in the way and we can never avoid that in a relationship.
we have heard and seen how others in a long-term relationship too suffers a breakdown and eventually move on with their newfound love or worst, he/she couldn't move on for he/she still hold on to their past.
true enough, who would be able to forget the past easily right?
it indeed takes time. or maybe forever.
babyku, we are considered lucky enough that one of the obstacles we faced throughout these years are not those from the very fact of human beings who will do anything to create misunderstandings or simply dislike us being together.
im truly grateful for that. i can never thank Him enough for that, for blessing us till this far.
it's our attitude of selfishness and egoistic that always drifts us apart whenever problems arises.
don't you think so, babyku?
but im really glad that after each problem we had, our love grew stronger than before.
we had faced the worst before and i hope we are able to face together whatever that's coming in the way.
we made mistakes. we learnt from it. and hoping those mistakes won't repeat.
but hell, human beings being human beings. it's just so hard. =(
nonetheless, we kept trying for the faith we have in each other. =)
i know i've not express enough through actions.
just expressing through words in those old kental letters in the past and in this blogosphere aren't enough.
as the saying goes, action speaks louder than words.
haiya, i really cannot help it lah. i love writing letters for i expressed myself more through that. ;)
nevertheless, my simple words are sincere enough of my feelings for you all these years.
those mere simple words do come from the bottom of my heart.
to think that we have come till this far, it makes our love all the more special.
don't you agree, babyku?
in this heart of mine, there will always be a place just for you. only you.
i know you're reading this silently (despite forcing you to tag me for a mere "hi", claiming that you're shy. chet!),
so im goin to say this anyway,
i heart you very much, babyku. nothing and noone except Him can ever change that.
*carebear hug*
and many thanks for today. =)
you know i love you.
windy and breezy at west coast.
boys with their soccer. kids in their own world. their family picnic. jogs and jogs.
i think i can live my life like this everyday.
love on budget this season.
sponsored by mummy's delish asam pedas and telur mata lembu.
and not forgetting chocolate milkshake and nuggets from the nearby macdonalds.
i love the sound of the waves especially when it hits the surface of the rock.
it just made me feel at ease.
the way the breeze caressed the trees and the wind blew my hair (even if it irritates me for blowing my hair all over) just made me feel free.
free from any thoughts that's been revolving in the mind.
and not forgetting the massive headache recently. phew...
and then, you're off for work. =(
for now, my mouth felt itchy to chew something in the midle of the night.
let me check if there's something in the kitchen.
goodnite. =)
