my lil brother, a'an asked mum this, "kakak burpday nak kasi ape ah?" mum replied, "Haha nak kasi ape? A'an kasi kakak roti pun kakak da cukup happy!"
yeap its true aye! kakak simply love 2 things. one, she loves to eat bread with kaya/butter/nutella toppings. other than that, red bean bread, that sugary bread etc. anything bread! =) second, she loves listening to music. rock on kakak! thats what she does at home every now and then! she will simply signalled to us to her room. means she wants us to switch on the fan and the radio for her. =)
so, kakak turns 24th young today! its unbelievable how she came into this world with questions in mind, yet a blessing in disguise at the end of the road, bringing light to our family. she's a special and precious gift send from Him to us.
it took us years to actually understand her way of communication. but it always make me ponder on whether we really understand her. i do not know whether i did what she really want me to. i do not know whether she's really happy deep inside. i do not know what's really inside her mind. i do not know whether she felt my love for her coz i suck at expressing myself. but i do felt her love for her siblings when the parents scolded us in her presence, she will cry and shout in frustration and signal for the parents to stop scolding. at times she will crawl forward and scratched or pulled the parents legs. at that point of time, i knew she's defending us no matter what wrongs or mistakes we did. she loves each and everyone of us.
i do not know whether my love for her is enough. i do not know whether she felt neglected coz almost everyone except mum are busy with their own life. but i know for sure mum and along always there for her.
i do not know whether she hate us for leaving her alone at home at times where it's hard for the parents to bring heralong especially when she's getting heavier and my parents are not that strong like they used to be when she's below 16 years old. its hard to carry her. even along and i felt restless and a pain on our back after carrying her for awhile when wanting to bring her to the toilet to bathe. and its not as if my block is so convenient with a lift on every floor. but when the gov decided to have some upgrading, we're so happy coz we get to bring her out w/o waiting for dad to return from work. my mum and i can just bring her out anytime with the upgrading of lifts in future, the convenient lifts available in MRT and certain shopping centres which is accessible to wheelchairs. im sure daniel understand this very well. i can't wait!
i do not know many things and i really do want to know, kakak.
nevertheless, mum is always there for us to advice and teach us from young about her. that even the niecey at a very much young age at that point of time, asked this question.
"Kenape angah (kakak) macam tu? Kesian angah..."
there's one time when she called kakak cacat, meaning retarded and along scolded her nicely and told her not to refer kakak like that. she explained to her daughter the reasons and she understood till now. everyone and the relatives love her. she's special to us.
and i always believe kakak is always praying for our well-being. she really do. and i know she does. =)
i thank You for bringing her to this world. i thank the parents espcially mum for her endless love, sacrifices and energy in taking care of her. =)
Happy Labour Day everyone!
hope we'll always be there for you
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